I am so addicted to reading everyone's blogs but I never find the time to write any on my own blog.... I take pictures and think to myself that will be a great blog post but i never come to blog... Alot has gone on since last time, and perhaps that is why I have been away for so long. I dont know.... I think after I read every one elses blog, when I go to write I think, well my pictures are not that great, and I dont write as well as others but I should do it anyway. This way I can document what is going on so when I finally get back around to scrap booking I will have this to go back and match my dates too. Perhaps that should be my game plan {grin}...
Maybe I will set myself a reminder and list of a few things to get caught up on!
* Brayden had surgery
* the on going saga of my dads health
* the military jobs
* our little staycation over spring break
* my want of a new baby
Nuts!!!! I have so much to write about, just need to get to it!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Yum-O!!!
With my dad getting out of the hospital yesterday,and it being a reallly cold night, the snow started falling a little after 3. I had decided I would cook a yummy meal and have dad and my sister over... This is probably my favorite "go to" chicken recipe, I love chicken casserole but, this is easier! So, if you have to take a meal to someone this is easy and yummmmy.
I take chicken breast and butterfly them so they cook faster, then i chunk them where you should get 4 pieces out of each piece. Like tonight I had 2 huge chicken breast, i butterflied them them cut them into 4pieces that made us have 16 pieces of chicken.
- then you take bacon, cut it in half, and wrap your chicken pieces and place in a baking dish.
- i then take a can cream of chicken, cream of celery, and 2 big spoons of sour cream. Mix them all together in a bowl, if its a little thick add either a little chicken stock, or a spoon of water.
- then spoon the sauce over each piece of chicken, salt and pepper each piece of chicken
- bake in over on 350 degrees, for around 2 hours
I served this with yummmy green beans, corn, and mac n cheese with rolls.
It was a wonderful dinner. Im excited, we got a wonderful snow fall. The kids are out again tomorrow, Im thinking that I may clean :) and I already know of another wonderful meal for tommorow. Its always nice to have a few extra warm recipes besides soups, and chili... HAPPY SNOW DAY!!!!!!!
I take chicken breast and butterfly them so they cook faster, then i chunk them where you should get 4 pieces out of each piece. Like tonight I had 2 huge chicken breast, i butterflied them them cut them into 4pieces that made us have 16 pieces of chicken.
- then you take bacon, cut it in half, and wrap your chicken pieces and place in a baking dish.
- i then take a can cream of chicken, cream of celery, and 2 big spoons of sour cream. Mix them all together in a bowl, if its a little thick add either a little chicken stock, or a spoon of water.
- then spoon the sauce over each piece of chicken, salt and pepper each piece of chicken
- bake in over on 350 degrees, for around 2 hours
I served this with yummmy green beans, corn, and mac n cheese with rolls.
It was a wonderful dinner. Im excited, we got a wonderful snow fall. The kids are out again tomorrow, Im thinking that I may clean :) and I already know of another wonderful meal for tommorow. Its always nice to have a few extra warm recipes besides soups, and chili... HAPPY SNOW DAY!!!!!!!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Alot going on.....
Since last Thursday Jan 13th so much has been going on... I know that it seems like all of my post are about being sick and well.. that sums up the way it has been for us this year. Between my blood pressure having extreme issues, and Brayden having new issues with his ears. Anyway this is going to be a bullet point post since so much is going on, I need to remember what we have been thru and hopefully move on.
* Thursday--- Brayden went back to the dr for his ear check up, his ears are still reading flat, his tonisls are huge, and since Ethan had strep the Friday before we decided to check and test B, so they did and he was positve for strep. They really wanted him to see an ENT right away since he had 6 weeks of reading flat...
*Friday--- I went to work, when I left work at 5ish I called to check on my dad and he was having chest pains, so I sent hubby to check on him, when he got there he wasnt talking he was moaning and he tried to stand up butfell to the floor. Took him to ER i met him there, long draining night, after alot of test they thought he may have had a stroke, didnt confirm it some of the test and dye that he needed for that is bad on him since he is in Renal failure. (ill go back to this night, on another night but im drained from the week and dont want to forget anythign so Im just touching on things) he was put in ICU.
*Saturday- dad stayed in ICU, didnt learn anything new
* Sunday- he got moved to the room, our goal was to get to Monday more extensive test were going to be done on Monday
** Monday-- he had an MRI, confirmed he had a stroke, I went to the dr, got put in a blood pressure patch
** Tuesday- Speach thearpist for my dad, and a few med readjustments and stayed in hospital, I got a phone call from Vandy telling me the dr wanted Bray ear appointment moved up from Feb.21 so they moved him to next wednesday. i had a horrible night with the new patch
*Wednesday---- my dad came home from the hospital...
So a long week and Ill detail more later,but for now im tired... whats new?
* Thursday--- Brayden went back to the dr for his ear check up, his ears are still reading flat, his tonisls are huge, and since Ethan had strep the Friday before we decided to check and test B, so they did and he was positve for strep. They really wanted him to see an ENT right away since he had 6 weeks of reading flat...
*Friday--- I went to work, when I left work at 5ish I called to check on my dad and he was having chest pains, so I sent hubby to check on him, when he got there he wasnt talking he was moaning and he tried to stand up butfell to the floor. Took him to ER i met him there, long draining night, after alot of test they thought he may have had a stroke, didnt confirm it some of the test and dye that he needed for that is bad on him since he is in Renal failure. (ill go back to this night, on another night but im drained from the week and dont want to forget anythign so Im just touching on things) he was put in ICU.
*Saturday- dad stayed in ICU, didnt learn anything new
* Sunday- he got moved to the room, our goal was to get to Monday more extensive test were going to be done on Monday
** Monday-- he had an MRI, confirmed he had a stroke, I went to the dr, got put in a blood pressure patch
** Tuesday- Speach thearpist for my dad, and a few med readjustments and stayed in hospital, I got a phone call from Vandy telling me the dr wanted Bray ear appointment moved up from Feb.21 so they moved him to next wednesday. i had a horrible night with the new patch
*Wednesday---- my dad came home from the hospital...
So a long week and Ill detail more later,but for now im tired... whats new?
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Late night talking with Brayden
I have to say that I know it is after midnight, and me and Brayden are hanging out watching Saturday Night Live, I know its totally not a kid show, but he dont understand it, just laughing at all the diffrent "charecters",, But thats not the point of the story, last night I sat up all night watching so that my baby wouldnt have a seizer in his sleep without me knowing..
During this late night chat, im just thankful his temp is down, and he still isnt feeling 100 percent but alot better then last night....
So, tonight he is saying some of the funniest things and I dont want to forget it;
* We were sitting here eating a popcicle, mine was purple and his red, he said " Look mom, they almost match, um yeah they are close arent they Bray?
* He is really into what language people speak, although most everyone he is around speaks English, people have such a hard time understanding him, his brother says something like he isnt speaking English, so tonight he said mama mia, i cook a burrito... I laughed at such an odd sentence from him, he said thats how the people on the cooking show talk, they dont speak English.... Might I add that he loves the cooking show...
* As we are laying here he told me his foot was itching please scratch it, I told him I guess, so I went to touch his foot he said, no u not touch it, its too cold for mamas to touch..
* A commercial came on for candy bar, and he looked at me and said mama, i so bery hungry, but i not ea burrito with nuts on them, i said no sweetie thats a candy bar not a burrito ( i dont know why he is so obsessed with burritos, he want eat them) so I told him I would get him a snack what did he want, he said cinnamon toast crunch, so i got them for him, he said hmmm it taste like cheese....
I really dont know if anyone reads here and thats ok for now, and I know that if you do read here this was so boring to you, but we have had such a fun night, his brother is gone to my dads, and my hubby is in the living room hanging out so we thought it was fun to climb in bed with mom and just laugh... I loved every single minute and so thankful for the little conversations that we have.... He is toooo funny
During this late night chat, im just thankful his temp is down, and he still isnt feeling 100 percent but alot better then last night....
So, tonight he is saying some of the funniest things and I dont want to forget it;
* We were sitting here eating a popcicle, mine was purple and his red, he said " Look mom, they almost match, um yeah they are close arent they Bray?
* He is really into what language people speak, although most everyone he is around speaks English, people have such a hard time understanding him, his brother says something like he isnt speaking English, so tonight he said mama mia, i cook a burrito... I laughed at such an odd sentence from him, he said thats how the people on the cooking show talk, they dont speak English.... Might I add that he loves the cooking show...
* As we are laying here he told me his foot was itching please scratch it, I told him I guess, so I went to touch his foot he said, no u not touch it, its too cold for mamas to touch..
* A commercial came on for candy bar, and he looked at me and said mama, i so bery hungry, but i not ea burrito with nuts on them, i said no sweetie thats a candy bar not a burrito ( i dont know why he is so obsessed with burritos, he want eat them) so I told him I would get him a snack what did he want, he said cinnamon toast crunch, so i got them for him, he said hmmm it taste like cheese....
I really dont know if anyone reads here and thats ok for now, and I know that if you do read here this was so boring to you, but we have had such a fun night, his brother is gone to my dads, and my hubby is in the living room hanging out so we thought it was fun to climb in bed with mom and just laugh... I loved every single minute and so thankful for the little conversations that we have.... He is toooo funny
The bug is here!!!!
Oh my goodness, the last few days have been nuts.. Starting on Thursday, Ethan left his agenda book in my sisters car, which would never be blog worthy but she decided to go oout of town, and if he didnt take this to school he would miss recess, and I didnt want that to happen. So I called my sister to stop and i would meet her she was almost 45 min away. She was actually stuck in traffic she ran up on a horrible wreck, but I may blog about that later. So, anyway I went and spent nearly 2 hours on the road and got his agenda book-- spoiled, maybe {grin}.
Now, fast forward a few hours, Ethan comes into bed around 2 in the morning crying, I could tell he was truly sick he was burning up, and so thirsty, I thought perhaps it was his sugar, I told him he could hang out in my bed so I could keep an eye on him, few hours later it was time for school, we decided his temp was over 100 so he would be staying home, so after all the travels, he didnt need his agenda book after all, oh well! {grin}
He went to the dr at 4:30, hubby took him, Ethan is terrible with drs. called me about an hour later to tell me, I was wright it was strep, I thought it was strep, he was saying his jaw,throat, and neck was hurting.
Brayden had went to stay at my cousins house so that he wouldnt get sick, so I was at home with Ethan , making him better. my dad has been sick since Thursday from his treatment so he was at our house too. So, i just thought Brayden would benefit not being here at 8 at I get a call, Brayden is freezing and his teeth are chattering and he is really warm, but he is saying he dont feel good. I said ok, we will be right there. He gets home with a temp of 102.7, an hour later he was at 103.... This made me nervous again, it was near bed time and Brayden has had a history of seizers, he dont have them alot, but when he runs a fever of 104, it triggers his seizers.
So, that left us with a long night....... Ill post more later, it was the longest night, and I was still awake at 5 am. So, im thinking a nap is in my future {grin}....
Now, fast forward a few hours, Ethan comes into bed around 2 in the morning crying, I could tell he was truly sick he was burning up, and so thirsty, I thought perhaps it was his sugar, I told him he could hang out in my bed so I could keep an eye on him, few hours later it was time for school, we decided his temp was over 100 so he would be staying home, so after all the travels, he didnt need his agenda book after all, oh well! {grin}
He went to the dr at 4:30, hubby took him, Ethan is terrible with drs. called me about an hour later to tell me, I was wright it was strep, I thought it was strep, he was saying his jaw,throat, and neck was hurting.
Brayden had went to stay at my cousins house so that he wouldnt get sick, so I was at home with Ethan , making him better. my dad has been sick since Thursday from his treatment so he was at our house too. So, i just thought Brayden would benefit not being here at 8 at I get a call, Brayden is freezing and his teeth are chattering and he is really warm, but he is saying he dont feel good. I said ok, we will be right there. He gets home with a temp of 102.7, an hour later he was at 103.... This made me nervous again, it was near bed time and Brayden has had a history of seizers, he dont have them alot, but when he runs a fever of 104, it triggers his seizers.
So, that left us with a long night....... Ill post more later, it was the longest night, and I was still awake at 5 am. So, im thinking a nap is in my future {grin}....
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Wordless Wednesday (sort of)
You know your going to have a good day, when you have to fast for nearly 12 hours and go to the dr for blood draws.... We will know the results for everything hopefully on Friday, today was a very busy day today so im going to take it easy and relax and watch, Peoples Choice Awards tonight, should be interesting....
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Do you hear what I hear?
Sadly, Brayden is having more ear issues again... I dont remember if I have ever blogged about his ears, Brayden has already had 2 sets of tubes, and between the 2 sets we noticed his speech delay and that he had mild hearing loss, so we thought that with the second set of tubes this would fix itself, well his 2nd set of tubes are out, and we have been back to the dr 4 times in the last month and a half for his ears. And as his mom it is breaking my heart to see my 5 year old have such a hard time expressing himself, the dr is telling me when he looks at his ear, it looks perfect, but when they measure the movement of his ear drum it is flat in both ears. so it is making me nuts. Not that I care that I have to keep going back to he dr so many times, that doesnt bother me, it breaks my heart that we have been working with speach thearpy for 4 years and he is still having such a hard time. I dont like when he is around other kids and they can be so cruel, they make comments like is he speaking english, or what is he saying. Even adults have a hard time understanding him. Heck, im his mom and around him so much and when he starts telling a story it is hard for me as well, so I guess im just venting I want my baby to better. I know that this is crazy to get down on. And trust me I know that things could be worse with his stiff person syndrome, we are blessed at the moment he is walking and moving with very little pain, we are blessed that he has outgrown his seizures, honostly I am just blessed he is alive, you know us mommies we want the absolute best for our kids... Thats all. {grin}
Monday, January 3, 2011
Some of my favorite things
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I enjoyed lots of lazy time we had blankets, and pillows and lots of snuggle times with the kids ,we new U draw, and DS, and lots of games.. it was so much fun!!!
So now the holidays are over and its time to get ready forthe new year! Now if I can just get motivated to take down my Christmas decorations! Im ready to do some major cleaning and redecorating....
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Its new year, so maybe its new beginning!
Well, here we are its already 2011!!! Last year was such an adventure for our family, so it made it go by so fast.. I have made it my priority to blog everyday for 2011. I know its already January 2nd and its my first blog for the year, but you know Life- does happen. I have found so much comfort in reading other peoples blogs, that I am going to start commenting more and interacting more with bloggers. I feel like there are some that I am "friends' with already... Some blogs I pray and pray over them and their families, while others really encourage me, some are pure entertainment for me. I always think that it really didnt matter if I never blogged, no one reads here, but you know this year--- Im going to blog if for nothing else just so I can remember what is going on.. My life happens so fast that my days run together and I often forget some of the best things that happen to me. There are times that I need to vent and just get some of my feelings off of my chest and I am going to do that here. I hope and pray that this year leads us to lots of opportunties, so I hope to keep up with them all....
But for tonight, Im not going to worry about uploading pictures, IM going to reflect on jot down things that went on in 2010. And Im going to set my goals for myself in 2011. Maybe, just mybe if I write them down I will stay focuesd on them...
Januray last year-- we rang in the new year with Darin not at home he was already in Pre- Mob in Camp Shelby. So it was a bitter sweet time for us.
Feb- I took the kids to Camp Shelby in a terrible ice storm, and we drove down to see Darin one more time before he left.
March- we finally were in our groove of deployment, life was busy.
April---- fuzzy,
May- my mother in law came in to visit with us, it was my hubbys birthday, and my anniversary, i often times get down when my hubby is gone.
June-- busy month for us, my dad was in the ICU, he had to start dialysis, we had Relay
July- kept busy.. got word, that hubby could be coming home soon
August-- 9 mile Memorial march, hubby came home, althought he was only in country for 6 months he had been training for a year so we ready for that chapter to be over.. we also took the kids to san diego for the week to enjoy life. they missed the first week of school and we really didnt care.
September- my birthday, i really dont remember
October- Braydens birthday, im sure we stayed busy
Novermber- Ethans birthday, I got sick and had to go to hospital, life started getting busier
December- we took a huge leap, Darin went to a new military job and trusting in the Lord that he knows what is going on with our family. My mother in law came in to see us the day after Christmas
and now here we are.... Its the new year and we are looking for a new beginning. I want a new attitude, i want to be healthier, i want our life to simplfy, i want us out of debt, i want to stop stressing everything, im ready to be healthy enough for another baby. This year can bring so much to our family and we all ready to see where we will go.....
But for tonight, Im not going to worry about uploading pictures, IM going to reflect on jot down things that went on in 2010. And Im going to set my goals for myself in 2011. Maybe, just mybe if I write them down I will stay focuesd on them...
Januray last year-- we rang in the new year with Darin not at home he was already in Pre- Mob in Camp Shelby. So it was a bitter sweet time for us.
Feb- I took the kids to Camp Shelby in a terrible ice storm, and we drove down to see Darin one more time before he left.
March- we finally were in our groove of deployment, life was busy.
April---- fuzzy,
May- my mother in law came in to visit with us, it was my hubbys birthday, and my anniversary, i often times get down when my hubby is gone.
June-- busy month for us, my dad was in the ICU, he had to start dialysis, we had Relay
July- kept busy.. got word, that hubby could be coming home soon
August-- 9 mile Memorial march, hubby came home, althought he was only in country for 6 months he had been training for a year so we ready for that chapter to be over.. we also took the kids to san diego for the week to enjoy life. they missed the first week of school and we really didnt care.
September- my birthday, i really dont remember
October- Braydens birthday, im sure we stayed busy
Novermber- Ethans birthday, I got sick and had to go to hospital, life started getting busier
December- we took a huge leap, Darin went to a new military job and trusting in the Lord that he knows what is going on with our family. My mother in law came in to see us the day after Christmas
and now here we are.... Its the new year and we are looking for a new beginning. I want a new attitude, i want to be healthier, i want our life to simplfy, i want us out of debt, i want to stop stressing everything, im ready to be healthy enough for another baby. This year can bring so much to our family and we all ready to see where we will go.....
Monday, July 26, 2010
****Warning this will be a long post!
Let me start off by saying that being a mother is the most important honor in the world. I am thrilled to be a mom, and I honestly love each and every single minute of being a mom. But with my husband gone alot, I feel like I have not even began to be the best mom that I know that I can be, instead I have been in survival mode. And this is truly getting me down. When I lay in bed and think about everything that I want to change about my life, it is about the way that I parent, and yet I do nothing about it. And tonight my children have proven to me that I'm not being the mom that I need to be to them and it is time for a change..
Let me tell you that I am not a perfect mom, but I sure don't think that I'm the worse mother in the world. My parenting is alot different then some people would approve of. And this is where this post can get controversial.... So I'm pouring my heart out, trust me I know that people will judge me and talk about me and this is perfectly ok with me, I'm used to it, my family talks about my parenting my husband dislikes alot of it but it is who I am..
When I was first pregnant with Ethan, I cant begin to tell you how many people disapproved of my pregnancy and to say that it was less then planned is an understatement, this is a long story that i will not go into all the way, but I had a surgery while I was pregnant I didn't know and the hospital did not test, so lets say that I could have done alot of legal actions but to have a baby born healthy is all that I wanted. I was advised by my friends, my Dr that was a good friend of mine and the sperm donor to have an abortion. Let me say that this was not the option for me, I'm not judging people that do, but it wasn't my options since I was a little girl i had played mommy, and i loved the idea of being a mom so abortion wasn't for me, I agree that there were health risk with my surgery but we left that up to God and whatever happened, happened.
So to be his mom was a blessing to me, and our first year together was a very very hard year. I was a single mom, i worked full time, carrying him to work with me, went to college 2 times a wk and did an Internet course, and he was in and out of the hospital his entire first year, so being his mom is something that i take very serious, and to think of all the bonding that I had with him, is something that I cant explain to you.
Then when I had Brayden, same thing we were not planning, but it is perfectly ok, we were happy. Darin was beyond thrilled so life was good. We did none of the primary testing for downs or anything, none of that was important to us, we knew that we were having our angle and that he was perfect in our eyes so we would just turn that over to the lord. I remember at 17 weeks I started bleeding and I called the Dr and he said honey I'm sorry that i think that you are miscarrying you need to go to bed and come in the morning so we can confirm, so that entire night I layed in bed crying, Darin and I didn't say many words, we were both so scared, we went to the dr without even talking walked in ready to confirm that we were loosing our baby and he was fine!! SO the dr said to go on bed rest for a few weeks and lets see how things go, at 28 weeks i started contracting and it was getting reallly bad, the Dr sent me over to the hospital from his office Darin was on post 2 hrs away and I knew it would take him a while so I didn't call anyone to worry them, there was nothing the Dr said that he could do if the baby was born then and that he was really small so we would try to stop labor and if that didn't work we will prob loose him. So from that point on i went to the hospital 3 times a week for monitoring B didn't move alot so we never knew how things were from the outside, I finally nursed him to 34 weeks and had him. His heart stopped several times during delivery, and it was horrible labor experience I will post on that later, and B was born not breathing and my baby couldn't suck. there were lots of things going on with him and we have had a rough 4 yrs, but being his mom is an honor as well
So with that back ground you can see why when I look at my kids I see my angels, I see miracles that I have been so beyond blessed to have. And I know how important it is to make them mind, and if I love them then I will parent differently, I know all of that, but let me say that it is so hard for me. I have spent all these years making them happy , keeping them from hurt, protecting them from pain, so I don't believe in spanking. I know call the police. I don't like it!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like when you spank its mostly out of anger for some grown up issue, you are more short patient with them when you are the one that has had a bad day. So spanking is not an option for me. And now for my husband :)
I allow my kids to have there own style with a little guidance. if they want to wear mis matching shoes to the store, it really is hurting no one and often times gives people something to talk about. My kids sometimes they match often times they don't, its ok. It really isn't worth it to me to strip them of there person style so that they match each other. I often times ignore my house to paint pictures, or even after i just mopped my floor for the first time in 2 weeks we get out dry beans and play tractors, i know that the yard needs mowing but its so much more fun to bury my feet in the sand in the sand box. I know that there is so much that needs to be done around here but darn these kids are growing so fast and i don't want to take that for granted. Tonight after me cleaning out closets and bed rooms and cabinets , I could really be mad that I have 3 or 4 Thomas the train tracks in my living room, kitchen and down the hall, but who wouldn't be jealous to live in the middle of the island of sodor? LOL
You know sometimes we go to bed without a bath every night, sometimes they don't have there hair cut on time, we often times don't clip there nails when we should, and sometimes we eat ice cream for dinner, but there is one thing that this mommy that is relaxed and probably not getting a mother of the year award for will not tolerate and that is my boys being mean to one another... I don't like to see them scream and yell at each other often I sit back and let them work it out so that they can figure out how to solve problems, but I will NOT ACCEPT A CHILD TO BULLY THE OTHER!!! I will not have that. I will not have them hitting each other, kicking each other, totally lying to one another. these are things that I will not have. I want them to know that in this world when you have nothing else, and you cant trust anyone else, that you r brother has your back, your brother is your best friend, your brother will protect you from whatever. So I understand that kids will be kids and little boys will fight but tonight I watched my 7 year old push my 4 yr old down to the ground outside on my concrete drive way and punch him and just not let up for anything, a glass was broken he was so out of control. I understand this is a cry for anger management ... As a mom this hurt me to see this much anger build up in him. After I finally stopped being soo mad and I sent them to there different rooms, and I had to go into my bathroom and cry and pull myself together, I had to go into Ethan's room and we have boxed up all of his belongings and he has to earn them alllllll back. Tomorrow he will start on his closet and help go thru his clothes, and he will start being caring one way or the other. Why does parenting have to be so hard, why cant I be stronger, I know that they need me to be more aggressive but it is hard and hurtful... I told you this was a long post and so sorry but i had to express all these feeling that were on my chest, Motherhood is incredible, but it is so hard to see some of the mistakes that i have made.
Let me start off by saying that being a mother is the most important honor in the world. I am thrilled to be a mom, and I honestly love each and every single minute of being a mom. But with my husband gone alot, I feel like I have not even began to be the best mom that I know that I can be, instead I have been in survival mode. And this is truly getting me down. When I lay in bed and think about everything that I want to change about my life, it is about the way that I parent, and yet I do nothing about it. And tonight my children have proven to me that I'm not being the mom that I need to be to them and it is time for a change..
Let me tell you that I am not a perfect mom, but I sure don't think that I'm the worse mother in the world. My parenting is alot different then some people would approve of. And this is where this post can get controversial.... So I'm pouring my heart out, trust me I know that people will judge me and talk about me and this is perfectly ok with me, I'm used to it, my family talks about my parenting my husband dislikes alot of it but it is who I am..
When I was first pregnant with Ethan, I cant begin to tell you how many people disapproved of my pregnancy and to say that it was less then planned is an understatement, this is a long story that i will not go into all the way, but I had a surgery while I was pregnant I didn't know and the hospital did not test, so lets say that I could have done alot of legal actions but to have a baby born healthy is all that I wanted. I was advised by my friends, my Dr that was a good friend of mine and the sperm donor to have an abortion. Let me say that this was not the option for me, I'm not judging people that do, but it wasn't my options since I was a little girl i had played mommy, and i loved the idea of being a mom so abortion wasn't for me, I agree that there were health risk with my surgery but we left that up to God and whatever happened, happened.
So to be his mom was a blessing to me, and our first year together was a very very hard year. I was a single mom, i worked full time, carrying him to work with me, went to college 2 times a wk and did an Internet course, and he was in and out of the hospital his entire first year, so being his mom is something that i take very serious, and to think of all the bonding that I had with him, is something that I cant explain to you.
Then when I had Brayden, same thing we were not planning, but it is perfectly ok, we were happy. Darin was beyond thrilled so life was good. We did none of the primary testing for downs or anything, none of that was important to us, we knew that we were having our angle and that he was perfect in our eyes so we would just turn that over to the lord. I remember at 17 weeks I started bleeding and I called the Dr and he said honey I'm sorry that i think that you are miscarrying you need to go to bed and come in the morning so we can confirm, so that entire night I layed in bed crying, Darin and I didn't say many words, we were both so scared, we went to the dr without even talking walked in ready to confirm that we were loosing our baby and he was fine!! SO the dr said to go on bed rest for a few weeks and lets see how things go, at 28 weeks i started contracting and it was getting reallly bad, the Dr sent me over to the hospital from his office Darin was on post 2 hrs away and I knew it would take him a while so I didn't call anyone to worry them, there was nothing the Dr said that he could do if the baby was born then and that he was really small so we would try to stop labor and if that didn't work we will prob loose him. So from that point on i went to the hospital 3 times a week for monitoring B didn't move alot so we never knew how things were from the outside, I finally nursed him to 34 weeks and had him. His heart stopped several times during delivery, and it was horrible labor experience I will post on that later, and B was born not breathing and my baby couldn't suck. there were lots of things going on with him and we have had a rough 4 yrs, but being his mom is an honor as well
So with that back ground you can see why when I look at my kids I see my angels, I see miracles that I have been so beyond blessed to have. And I know how important it is to make them mind, and if I love them then I will parent differently, I know all of that, but let me say that it is so hard for me. I have spent all these years making them happy , keeping them from hurt, protecting them from pain, so I don't believe in spanking. I know call the police. I don't like it!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like when you spank its mostly out of anger for some grown up issue, you are more short patient with them when you are the one that has had a bad day. So spanking is not an option for me. And now for my husband :)
I allow my kids to have there own style with a little guidance. if they want to wear mis matching shoes to the store, it really is hurting no one and often times gives people something to talk about. My kids sometimes they match often times they don't, its ok. It really isn't worth it to me to strip them of there person style so that they match each other. I often times ignore my house to paint pictures, or even after i just mopped my floor for the first time in 2 weeks we get out dry beans and play tractors, i know that the yard needs mowing but its so much more fun to bury my feet in the sand in the sand box. I know that there is so much that needs to be done around here but darn these kids are growing so fast and i don't want to take that for granted. Tonight after me cleaning out closets and bed rooms and cabinets , I could really be mad that I have 3 or 4 Thomas the train tracks in my living room, kitchen and down the hall, but who wouldn't be jealous to live in the middle of the island of sodor? LOL
You know sometimes we go to bed without a bath every night, sometimes they don't have there hair cut on time, we often times don't clip there nails when we should, and sometimes we eat ice cream for dinner, but there is one thing that this mommy that is relaxed and probably not getting a mother of the year award for will not tolerate and that is my boys being mean to one another... I don't like to see them scream and yell at each other often I sit back and let them work it out so that they can figure out how to solve problems, but I will NOT ACCEPT A CHILD TO BULLY THE OTHER!!! I will not have that. I will not have them hitting each other, kicking each other, totally lying to one another. these are things that I will not have. I want them to know that in this world when you have nothing else, and you cant trust anyone else, that you r brother has your back, your brother is your best friend, your brother will protect you from whatever. So I understand that kids will be kids and little boys will fight but tonight I watched my 7 year old push my 4 yr old down to the ground outside on my concrete drive way and punch him and just not let up for anything, a glass was broken he was so out of control. I understand this is a cry for anger management ... As a mom this hurt me to see this much anger build up in him. After I finally stopped being soo mad and I sent them to there different rooms, and I had to go into my bathroom and cry and pull myself together, I had to go into Ethan's room and we have boxed up all of his belongings and he has to earn them alllllll back. Tomorrow he will start on his closet and help go thru his clothes, and he will start being caring one way or the other. Why does parenting have to be so hard, why cant I be stronger, I know that they need me to be more aggressive but it is hard and hurtful... I told you this was a long post and so sorry but i had to express all these feeling that were on my chest, Motherhood is incredible, but it is so hard to see some of the mistakes that i have made.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Do you remember that phone call???
Ring Ring....... Have you ever noticed how a simple phone call can simply change your plans for the day, or it can change the way you feel, it can impact your feelings for the day, it can change your life.... I have noticed this alot this week. I have been on a huge spectrum of emotions this week and its funny how it started with a phone call that was brought tears to my eyes for sadness, and ended with a phone call that brought tears to my eyes of happiness. And it got me thinking how a simple phone call can reallly change your life.
So as I started thinking about how Monday morning I was sitting at home so proud that we had been out walking 7 miles came out and sit down to try to plan the week of busy things we had when my phone rings..... i find out my uncle passed away, in a few simple words his life was over. Its amazing how when you here your phone ring at certain hours of the day it does that to you, it makes you sick to your stomach...... So I was thinking, of different phone calls that didn't last long but how they can effect your life. I remember getting a phone call from a Dr and at that moment .. it confirmed that I was pregnant. I remember sitting by my mom waiting for her to find out that her test had come back and it was negative... she didn't have cancer. I remember the phone calls that come thru to announce that I was approved for our house... I remember getting the phone call to let me know that I was accepted into nursing school. I remember the time that Darin called me to make another date.. and I knew then that he was the one, to change my life.. I remember getting a call to come fast that things were bad with my sweet aunt, and before I got there she was gone. I remember getting the call with my husband crying and said we needed to talk.... I already knew then it was bad and he was going back to war. I remember getting a call at 5 in the morning to hear that my cousins baby had health issues, I remember all the times i held my breath waiting to hear from numerous Dr's with results for my kids.... I remember waiting for a Dr to confirm that Ethan was negative for cystic fibrosis... I remember all the times that I sat by the phone waiting to hear from my hubby to know that he was safe as he could be in Iraq, and today I got a wonderful phone call today to tell me that hubby was out of Baghdad, and in Kuwait, for part one of his journey home..... Sometimes the phone rings and it makes me so nervous, but today I prayed for the phone to ring and it was great news. So, remember the power in a simple phone call. You can easily change someones day, with kind words of encouragement or offer prayers. So remember the next time you call someone make it worth it.
So as I started thinking about how Monday morning I was sitting at home so proud that we had been out walking 7 miles came out and sit down to try to plan the week of busy things we had when my phone rings..... i find out my uncle passed away, in a few simple words his life was over. Its amazing how when you here your phone ring at certain hours of the day it does that to you, it makes you sick to your stomach...... So I was thinking, of different phone calls that didn't last long but how they can effect your life. I remember getting a phone call from a Dr and at that moment .. it confirmed that I was pregnant. I remember sitting by my mom waiting for her to find out that her test had come back and it was negative... she didn't have cancer. I remember the phone calls that come thru to announce that I was approved for our house... I remember getting the phone call to let me know that I was accepted into nursing school. I remember the time that Darin called me to make another date.. and I knew then that he was the one, to change my life.. I remember getting a call to come fast that things were bad with my sweet aunt, and before I got there she was gone. I remember getting the call with my husband crying and said we needed to talk.... I already knew then it was bad and he was going back to war. I remember getting a call at 5 in the morning to hear that my cousins baby had health issues, I remember all the times i held my breath waiting to hear from numerous Dr's with results for my kids.... I remember waiting for a Dr to confirm that Ethan was negative for cystic fibrosis... I remember all the times that I sat by the phone waiting to hear from my hubby to know that he was safe as he could be in Iraq, and today I got a wonderful phone call today to tell me that hubby was out of Baghdad, and in Kuwait, for part one of his journey home..... Sometimes the phone rings and it makes me so nervous, but today I prayed for the phone to ring and it was great news. So, remember the power in a simple phone call. You can easily change someones day, with kind words of encouragement or offer prayers. So remember the next time you call someone make it worth it.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
laundry room make over
Tonight I was really determined to re-do our laundry room, well the best you can re-do this small.. We used to have a huge laundry room, it was in our garage but then we really thought that we would be better off to redo the garage and make a room, big closet, bathroom and laundry room..So we settled for a smaller laundry room, so the best thing to do is to re- organize and make it as useful as I can...
So, tonight went thru. my sis was creative and made labels.. We have so many seasonal items so I went thur and organized the things.
Then we had an extra counter top, we let Ethan have it in his room for a while for a lego table now we put it on top of washer and dryer for counter space. the red bucket is fabric softener, the blue bucket has all the items to tackle stains... the large dotted bowl is the thing that collects all the stuff that is in our pockets. SO now we are organized lets see how long it can stay that way...
So, tonight went thru. my sis was creative and made labels.. We have so many seasonal items so I went thur and organized the things.
Then we had an extra counter top, we let Ethan have it in his room for a while for a lego table now we put it on top of washer and dryer for counter space. the red bucket is fabric softener, the blue bucket has all the items to tackle stains... the large dotted bowl is the thing that collects all the stuff that is in our pockets. SO now we are organized lets see how long it can stay that way...Thursday, July 8, 2010
RANDOM NOTHINGS
I know that I have been terrible with blogging and to think I was going to do so much better while Darin was away so that he could get up on the day to day activities, well...... Life has been so crazy I really love to read everyone else's blog, but not so much into taking the time to write down my day.... But, so much is going on, I really don't want to forget anything.
I have been working on our house alot lately trying to get everything nice and ready for Darin's homecoming. Not that he really could care what the house looks like, as long as he has a bathroom to walk to and a bed to lay down I'm sure he will not be picky. But being the home decorator that I am, I really want to make it as close to perfect as I can. .
So, today I finally redid a table that turned out completely awesome, I picked it up at a yard sale for 10.00, and bought a can of paint with a lot of sanding and painting it looks awesome ( Ill add pics later, I'm on the laptop and my pics are all on our PC). Then on to the bedroom, I had the house painted when Darin first left, I just never did anything else with it, so I'm finally working on redoing the rooms and getting that into place, bought a beautiful new bed spread and finally after over 2 years finally hung curtains in our bedroom.
Also, while I'm on this cleaning phase, I'm really trying to better use every bit of our space and to organize everything the best that I can. Our original plans were to not be here forever and I would love for us to move into a bigger home, but for now I think its silly. We are blessed with a nice 4 bedroom home, and its in a great area so we just need to stay put. I can become very greedy and don't mean to. I would love for the kids to have a bonus room, and to have an extra office space, and for our living room to be just a little bigger, but that is silly. We are so blessed to have the home that we do, I will not want anything else. I'm blessed that we have running water, and electricity. So, while I'm re-organizing, I'm also going thru the house and getting rid of so many decorations, or things we simply do not need. there are lots of other people that need what we have so its time to move on.....
Also, for more fun in today's events, the boys and I had the house nice and clean, which is not something that happens often, but glad that we did my grandparents stopped into town and having an over night trip. Which is fun, it was fun to sit around and spend time with them. We are planning on going out yard saling in the morning. SO, as soon as I talk with my hubby and watch a little Big Br*ther After D*rk , I missed the show tonight, so I'm trying to get caught up on the people this will help for time to pass by the rest of the summer.. So, HAPPY THURSDAY!!!!
I have been working on our house alot lately trying to get everything nice and ready for Darin's homecoming. Not that he really could care what the house looks like, as long as he has a bathroom to walk to and a bed to lay down I'm sure he will not be picky. But being the home decorator that I am, I really want to make it as close to perfect as I can. .
So, today I finally redid a table that turned out completely awesome, I picked it up at a yard sale for 10.00, and bought a can of paint with a lot of sanding and painting it looks awesome ( Ill add pics later, I'm on the laptop and my pics are all on our PC). Then on to the bedroom, I had the house painted when Darin first left, I just never did anything else with it, so I'm finally working on redoing the rooms and getting that into place, bought a beautiful new bed spread and finally after over 2 years finally hung curtains in our bedroom.
Also, while I'm on this cleaning phase, I'm really trying to better use every bit of our space and to organize everything the best that I can. Our original plans were to not be here forever and I would love for us to move into a bigger home, but for now I think its silly. We are blessed with a nice 4 bedroom home, and its in a great area so we just need to stay put. I can become very greedy and don't mean to. I would love for the kids to have a bonus room, and to have an extra office space, and for our living room to be just a little bigger, but that is silly. We are so blessed to have the home that we do, I will not want anything else. I'm blessed that we have running water, and electricity. So, while I'm re-organizing, I'm also going thru the house and getting rid of so many decorations, or things we simply do not need. there are lots of other people that need what we have so its time to move on.....
Also, for more fun in today's events, the boys and I had the house nice and clean, which is not something that happens often, but glad that we did my grandparents stopped into town and having an over night trip. Which is fun, it was fun to sit around and spend time with them. We are planning on going out yard saling in the morning. SO, as soon as I talk with my hubby and watch a little Big Br*ther After D*rk , I missed the show tonight, so I'm trying to get caught up on the people this will help for time to pass by the rest of the summer.. So, HAPPY THURSDAY!!!!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I wouldnt change a thing.....
There are days when I really sit back and think about my life, and to be honest there are days that it makes me have that flutter in my heart, that butterfly feeling in your stomach, you know my life isn't perfect. By noooo means am I perfect. But you know I wouldn't change it for a minute. Yes, I know that there are things from the out side looking in, you would want to change about me. Like, for one my son- oh he would love it if I was skinny, and my mom- well she would love it , if I was a better house keeper, to tons of people they would love it if I would parent differently, the list can go on and on. There are things that I think that hmmmm if I really could change what would it be...... The long answer nothing... You know God has placed every single thing in my life for a reason. And I don't want to start questioning God, or why? Just go with it... This is the attitude I have had forever... I'm not perfect but I try to go with it. I don't love drama, so I try hard to please people, in the long run I cant please everyone but I try hard. I know, yes I know that I'm not the best at parenting. But, its so hard for me. If people reallly knew what I went thru during my pregnancies both physically and mentally and the year after each of my boys were born they would probably back off a little, I'm sooo blessed to have my kids. And I try to remember that they are such a blessing. I could write an entire post on what a blessing being a mother is to me, but I want go there tonight. I know that I'M not by no means a house keeper, but you know what 10 years from now you will not really care how clean my house was, you will not remember on July 7th my beds were not made today, but my son will remember that his mommy rocked him for 10 hours when his body hurt so bad. On other days my kids will remember that we played outside until the street lights came on, and didn't have dinner until 8pm. These are things that my kids will remember and that is something I care about, not of my floors were mopped today. And Oh my if I want to start talking about changing things in my life, I couldn't leave out DEPLOYMENT... But when I remember this, I remember we have had this deployment hoovering over our heads for over a year. And immediately I began to pray to God, please Lord don't send Darin over seas. And I prayed lots of prayers like this, until one day the Lord spoke back to me, and told me to embrace it and he would carry him and protect him but for me to be at peace over this, and that yes, he could make it where Darin wouldn't be deployed, but that outcome could be worse. SO instead of begging and pleading with God and making deals with him, I did what I was told and turned it all over to him, and let me tell you, He knows what he is doing. He has his chosen people and the reason that they are where they are. SO. I want change that either. I know that you could say , Tiffany, you have a child that has special needs surely you would change that. Yes, your right I dont want my angel to hurt, but God has given us medicine and knowledge to make it were it is ok. And my no means would I change it for the world, God chose me to be a mommy to a child that is special.. And what a blessing that is. I remember at 17 weeks thinking that I was miscarrying- all I wanted was a baby. I remember when I went into preterm labor at 28 weeks, I told God I wasn't picky. I remember when my baby lost his heart beat during delivery and I was delivering a child that I didn't know if he was going to make it.. Oh how I begggged God, let me baby live. I didn't have a disclaimer that day, I didn't pray for a perfect little boy, I prayed for him to live and let me have my baby.And I knew I would do whatever it took to have him. So, no I wouldn't change that..... I remember being a single mom with Ethan while he was in the hospital as a young baby, he was in there alot his first year spending a week each time, he was so sick they thought he had cystic fibrosis, and I thought dear Lord, please let my baby live. And he did. SO i wouldn't change anything about me a single mom.... I was blessed to have a bond with my son and be his nurtier for him during that year. SO, nope... I wouldn't change a thing..... 
So, tonight as I go to bed, I think my heart is sooooooo full. And thankfully, I wouldn't change a thing.
So, tonight as I go to bed, I think my heart is sooooooo full. And thankfully, I wouldn't change a thing.Tuesday, July 6, 2010
WORDLESS WEDNESDAY--- almost
I remember when I was younger, swinging was so much fun ...
Now that im older, not so much... I got so motion sick, with my feet off the ground, LOL .................... Life was so diffrent when we were kids..
Now that im older, not so much... I got so motion sick, with my feet off the ground, LOL .................... Life was so diffrent when we were kids..Monday, July 5, 2010
Operation Stand Down & Magazine
I have had such a great weekend and I don't want to forget any of it, so I'm going to document and then hope that i can go back and add pics, I posted them all on fb but not had a lot of time to do this kind of documenting...
With the 4 of July being one of the most incredible holidays for me, I am sooo patriotic, my favorite color combo is red, white, and blue, I'm a sucker for anything Americana. SO, this is one of my favorite holidays.
I really never thought that it would be so hard this weekend, not having Darin at home, he has missed a few of our 4th of July's, whether it be in Iraq for 2 of them and then one year he was doing border patrol so he wasn't here, so I really didn't think I would be really emotional but I was... its funny how our feelings can really take over us. I was determined that since I wasn't going out of town or doing anything realllly spectacular I still wanted to celebrate and keep this holiday close to home and not forget the real meaning.
On Friday, it was such a wonderful day, Darin and I were featured in a magazine about military life and it was a great day to see that come out and to hear people talk about it, I stopped by a local restaurant ( this is something i love about our hometown) having owners in there businesses. Anyway i stopped by to pick up a few magazines ,and i noticed they all had combat boot t-shirts on and alot of red white and blue so i asked what was going on and told me that they were hosting a benefit that night, with an old fashioned cruise in bar b que, live music all that fun and it was for Operation Stand down, this is an organization for Homeless Veterans, this is such a great cause, and as i sat there watching these veterans my heart sank, these people fought for us during some hard times, they had a hard deployments, long deployments, with out the gear our soldiers have now, with out the technology they have now, only communication was letters from home, they didn't have phone centers, emails, cell phones, or skype. amazing the sacrifice they made, and the lack of respect that they deserve... So we sat there and watched the live music, the kids had hula hoop contest,bubble gum blowing contest, so awesome...
I didn't realize how much I did this weekend and so that I don't make this to long of a post, ill add tomorrow what we did on Saturday.... and the rest of the weekend. It was an amazing weekend.
With the 4 of July being one of the most incredible holidays for me, I am sooo patriotic, my favorite color combo is red, white, and blue, I'm a sucker for anything Americana. SO, this is one of my favorite holidays.
I really never thought that it would be so hard this weekend, not having Darin at home, he has missed a few of our 4th of July's, whether it be in Iraq for 2 of them and then one year he was doing border patrol so he wasn't here, so I really didn't think I would be really emotional but I was... its funny how our feelings can really take over us. I was determined that since I wasn't going out of town or doing anything realllly spectacular I still wanted to celebrate and keep this holiday close to home and not forget the real meaning.
On Friday, it was such a wonderful day, Darin and I were featured in a magazine about military life and it was a great day to see that come out and to hear people talk about it, I stopped by a local restaurant ( this is something i love about our hometown) having owners in there businesses. Anyway i stopped by to pick up a few magazines ,and i noticed they all had combat boot t-shirts on and alot of red white and blue so i asked what was going on and told me that they were hosting a benefit that night, with an old fashioned cruise in bar b que, live music all that fun and it was for Operation Stand down, this is an organization for Homeless Veterans, this is such a great cause, and as i sat there watching these veterans my heart sank, these people fought for us during some hard times, they had a hard deployments, long deployments, with out the gear our soldiers have now, with out the technology they have now, only communication was letters from home, they didn't have phone centers, emails, cell phones, or skype. amazing the sacrifice they made, and the lack of respect that they deserve... So we sat there and watched the live music, the kids had hula hoop contest,bubble gum blowing contest, so awesome...
I didn't realize how much I did this weekend and so that I don't make this to long of a post, ill add tomorrow what we did on Saturday.... and the rest of the weekend. It was an amazing weekend.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
FOURTH OF JULY
If it wasn't for people like these..... 
or these............
or these...................
Then we would be walking our streets proudly......
And who knows what kind of world our children might have to live in...
So, while we are all out celebrating lets not forget the ones that are away and making it possible....... We Thank you and Love you allll....................
(simply because my kids love love love this song).
YOUR A GRAND OLD FLAG,
or these............
or these...................
Then we would be walking our streets proudly......
And who knows what kind of world our children might have to live in...
So, while we are all out celebrating lets not forget the ones that are away and making it possible....... We Thank you and Love you allll....................
(simply because my kids love love love this song).
YOUR A GRAND OLD FLAG,
YOUR A HIGH FLYING FLAG
AND FOREVER IN PEACE MAY YOU WAVE
YOUR THE EMBLEM OF THE LAND I LOVE
THE HOME OF THE FREE AND THE BRAVE
Where there's never a boast or brag.
AND FOREVER IN PEACE MAY YOU WAVE
YOUR THE EMBLEM OF THE LAND I LOVE
THE HOME OF THE FREE AND THE BRAVE
EVERY HEART BEATS TRUE
NEATH THE RED, WHITE, AND BLUE
Where there's never a boast or brag.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
Keep your eye on the grand old flag.........
HAPPY 4TH OF JULY
HAPPY 4TH OF JULYWednesday, June 2, 2010
Summer is here!!!!!
For the last 2 days we have been at the pool and I can assure you that is pretty much where we will be for the rest of summer.... Brayden was in love with this float that was for khloe, but in true Brayden fashion he is pretending to drive and play by himself and entertain himself in his own world... Love him
Khloe is loveing the pool this year, Kinlee was a little hesitate but loveing it..
Brayden trying to "go under the water" he leans back and gets his hair wet, and says look i went under the water... Without ever getting his face wet...
Ethan is still the fish that he was last year.. This child can swim and swim. He makes friends with everyone he comes in contact with. So he is one happy camper..
Cheers... For all this wonderful sun shiney weather!!! We love it!
Khloe is loveing the pool this year, Kinlee was a little hesitate but loveing it..
Brayden trying to "go under the water" he leans back and gets his hair wet, and says look i went under the water... Without ever getting his face wet...
Ethan is still the fish that he was last year.. This child can swim and swim. He makes friends with everyone he comes in contact with. So he is one happy camper..
Cheers... For all this wonderful sun shiney weather!!! We love it!Sunday, May 30, 2010
Brayden
My sweet Brayden... he beats to his own drum... He is the sweetest child. He loves his picture to be made, he really just does whatever comes in his own mind, not for the attention, but just because its Bray Bray... Tonight, he decided he was going to be a bad guy and I was like, um ok.. B is not really a bad guy kind of guy, then he comes back with pink plastic high heels, now this is more B... HMMMMM 
Then I walk into the kitchen after we watch Toy St*ry 2 for the 2nd time tonight, Ill give him credit, he don't feel good, he is bored, we have played under the covered car port all day and we are getting a little nutso, so I walk in and see this.....
This is why I say B is having sensory issues right now, he always likes to wear sleeves, and pants, and hats... When, it is loud, or he is nervous he always wears hats, or if we go some where odd he wraps up in blankets... And when he needs extra input he loves to play in dry beans, or sand, or even a brush he has to rub him down... Today was a sensory day for him... he would have laid here all day if I would let him...
I will never know how he feels, or what he thinks, and it breaks my heart.. I love my kids with all my heart. And if this makes him feel better in 85 degree weather then we will do it... I have dried beans in totes containers for him to sit in, we have bowls for him to dig in when he gets out of sorts... Sensory Integration... yucky, its something kids really deal with it, and people don't pay alot of attention about it.. Love you my B
Then I walk into the kitchen after we watch Toy St*ry 2 for the 2nd time tonight, Ill give him credit, he don't feel good, he is bored, we have played under the covered car port all day and we are getting a little nutso, so I walk in and see this.....
This is why I say B is having sensory issues right now, he always likes to wear sleeves, and pants, and hats... When, it is loud, or he is nervous he always wears hats, or if we go some where odd he wraps up in blankets... And when he needs extra input he loves to play in dry beans, or sand, or even a brush he has to rub him down... Today was a sensory day for him... he would have laid here all day if I would let him...
I will never know how he feels, or what he thinks, and it breaks my heart.. I love my kids with all my heart. And if this makes him feel better in 85 degree weather then we will do it... I have dried beans in totes containers for him to sit in, we have bowls for him to dig in when he gets out of sorts... Sensory Integration... yucky, its something kids really deal with it, and people don't pay alot of attention about it.. Love you my B
Time never stops
This weekend has already come and gone... It was a very busy weekend, the last week was really busy. I had my mom- in-love in town with me to hang out for the week.. Such a nice treat. The boys had their last week of school, and I promise to catch up and post their awards day pictures but you know....TIME!!!
But, for the time being.. Friday night my sister graduated from getting her Medical Assistant diploma.. This was a big deal, she home schooled for high school and never walked the line, so this was such a sweet treat, and the emotional nut that I am, cried the entire time.. Proud of her, now I hope this steps makes her regain her self esteem, put her head on her shoulders, and grow up!!!
Saturday, we had all these huge hopes and plans to go have a picnic at a state park, feed the ducks, just enjoy the day. We have been on the go so much this week... Well, when we got in the car it started to rain,so we thought that we would stop at chic fil a, and eat lunch and play then maybe the rain would stop... So after an hour, we thought well it looks like it will get better so lets go to t*rget, we were really out of the park thing. So, we went to T*rget to get a few things and thought hey, lets but one of those neat sprinkler things, and a snow cone maker... This will be fun treats for the summer... So we went home sooo excited, made snow cones, came outside and it was so much cooler then we thought it should be... Since Bray had been getting sick all day with a cough we thought we would can the water idea, and go get new sand for the sand box and play....
So this is what we did.... He has sensory issues, so this was sooo much fun for him, and when he sick, he has more issues.
So this is the silly Saturday that we created.. Nothing to fun but..... the kids loved it!
But, for the time being.. Friday night my sister graduated from getting her Medical Assistant diploma.. This was a big deal, she home schooled for high school and never walked the line, so this was such a sweet treat, and the emotional nut that I am, cried the entire time.. Proud of her, now I hope this steps makes her regain her self esteem, put her head on her shoulders, and grow up!!!
Saturday, we had all these huge hopes and plans to go have a picnic at a state park, feed the ducks, just enjoy the day. We have been on the go so much this week... Well, when we got in the car it started to rain,so we thought that we would stop at chic fil a, and eat lunch and play then maybe the rain would stop... So after an hour, we thought well it looks like it will get better so lets go to t*rget, we were really out of the park thing. So, we went to T*rget to get a few things and thought hey, lets but one of those neat sprinkler things, and a snow cone maker... This will be fun treats for the summer... So we went home sooo excited, made snow cones, came outside and it was so much cooler then we thought it should be... Since Bray had been getting sick all day with a cough we thought we would can the water idea, and go get new sand for the sand box and play....
So this is what we did.... He has sensory issues, so this was sooo much fun for him, and when he sick, he has more issues.
So this is the silly Saturday that we created.. Nothing to fun but..... the kids loved it!
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